Los Angeles, CA
He played one of those cops from Barney Miller.
After sustaining a diet of coma-inducing, watered-down happy meals, life hit the skids. The ubiquitous greyness rained down. Sometimes it violently pelted the ground, causing divots the size of swimming pools.
Long days bled into endless nights, that bled into week-long blurs of
sepia-tinged benders. Three and four day periods of vacant
self-indulgence led to month-long gaps in time. Lost in a warp, a
wormhole where ambition was strangled by the stillness of melancholy.
was out on the street, or the street reached out and grabbed him. Hard
From the generous gestures of the kind-hearted, he'd collect
sacks of old bread and could be found down at the pier feeding seagulls
while sipping a can of warm Budweiser out of a torn paper bag.
Sullen groupings of
sour notes played on a loop inside his head. Ghosts hovered
like a polluted cloud of torment.
He knew he could never sustain the numerous trips to the hole. If you know where it is, then
you're a rare survivor. The hole rarely releases anyone from its grip. Anguished visitors were lured in by an endless hunger, yet snared
themselves in industrial fishing nets.
Shit sinks to
the bottom. Dead weight.
But like the rapper said, when your soul hits
the bottom, it doesn't stop and keeps going and seeping through the
cracks in the ground with the rest of all of the rotting waste. Your
soul doesn't whisk itself away up into the heavens, it's a buffet for
the worms while the rest of it leaks into the upper echelons of hell.